Back to work today! And call me crazy, but I was happy to be back!
First, I love work days. I love a day that I get to use exactly like I want to and finally get to clear off my desk and get organized. Of course, it's also nice and quiet without the kids. This morning was a little annoying because everyone had a question for me, people were in and out of my room, and we had three impromptu, "really quick" meetings. But after a delicious Chick-fil-a lunch, I had a very productive afternoon.
Second, I don't do well with lots of time off. Even a little time off for that matter. As Sean puts it- I get crazy. What he means is when I have nothing that I have to do in a day, I don't do anything. I get extremely lazy (you know, don't get dressed, leave your dishes all over the house, and would rather just watch sappy movies than leave the house lazy), which almost always leads to a little depression and overall pathetic-ness.
Does anyone else do that? Am I weird or what?
Third, time off means I have WAY too much time to think. I've been thinking what feels like nonstop about whether or not I'll end up pregnant in a couple of weeks and it's DRIVING ME CRAZY! Why can't I stop thinking about it? It's not like thinking I am or I'm not is really going to do a damn thing! Total wasted time!
Here's an example of how crazy I get with no work to distract me:
Me: I'm probably not pregnant because I don't feel any different than I normally would.
Me: Well, that doesn't mean anything. You've never been pregnant before, you wouldn't know.
Me: I know I've never been pregnant, but I still think I would feel something. I would know.
Me: Sure.
Me: Really. I would know. Right?
Me: Maybe if I think positive I'll make myself pregnant.
Me: No, don't get your hopes up. You're definitely not pregnant.
Me: Oh, shit! Maybe that just made me not pregnant!
Me: I've got to stop thinking about this. It will happen. Maybe this month, maybe not.
Me: Whatever. I'm never going to get pregnant.
Oh, my gosh annoying! I feel like slapping myself! Maybe that will get me to stop thinking... hmmmm...
Probably not. At least I'll be distracted from 7:55 to 3:55 tomorrow. Thank God for fourth graders!
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4 years ago
Glad you're getting back to work and doing what you love! You are right about time off, it can be very good when you have things to do but so bad when you have things to think about. Your personal pregnancy conversation with yourself is identical to the ones I had MANY TIMES. UGH!
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haha, you're hilarious! I'm glad I'm not the only one who carries on conversations with myself! =) I hope you have a great first day back with the kids! Miss you tons!
ReplyDeleteI do the same thing when I have too much time off. I quit my job on Monday (hooray!) but I've been COMPLETELY unproductive since then! I have so much to do, but I can't seem to get dressed and stop watching TV! I figure I'l give myself a little break this week and then it's back to contributing to society next week. :)
ReplyDeletePraying that God will send you a sweet baby!